人生，可以说漫长，也可以说是短暂。我们在一生中面对无数次的抉择。每一次的抉择就像是站在十字路口，到底该向左走，还是向右走，通往的是两个不同的方向，通往的也是不同的终点。我们每一个抉择，给了我们不同的结果。每一次的选择，大大小小的，需要的是思考和勇气。尤其当我们站在我们人生重要的十字路口，为我们自己的将来做下关键的抉择时，需要的是更多的勇气和更慎重的考量。
年轻时，有的勇气远远比现在来的多，常常不需要花多长时间来下一个决定。也许是因为年轻有的本钱就是时间，觉得走了这条路，不行了就转回头重新再来，不怕选择，可能越多选择越好，可以满足自己好奇心。走了二十八年，在现在不上不下的年龄，我开始害怕选择，也许怕自己选择错了，没有时间，没有勇气再从新开始。觉得自己开始越来越矛盾，大大小小的事情，害怕自己是下决定的那一个。有时侯，的确讨厌自己的婆妈。
站在这里，一个对自己人生重要的十字路口，两条路带领我去的，是完全不同的旅程，不同的终点。我开始犹豫。也许自己不再只是对自己负责，也需要为家庭等等的因素负责了。尽管自己心里已经有了决定，可是还是犹豫不决的不敢踏出那一步。
如果要我平淡的过一生，就这样的，平平稳稳，每天毫无目的的上班下班，过着机器式的生活，我甘心吗？自己比任何人都清楚，自己心里的那把尺。有人说，平凡是福。也没有不对。只是平凡后不后悔，的确是福气。也许关键真的在于自己要的是什么。有些人要的是平淡安稳的一生，有些人却追求璀灿的人生，也许不知到会不会成功，至少自己尝试过，就算失败也没有遗憾。我要的又是什么呢？掌握在自己手里的未来，也许只有自己可以为自己决定。
今天问了友人一个问题，你要的是怎样的人生？也是给自己的一个思考问题。我的人生，也许漫长，也许短暂。不管怎样，将来怎样，自己到底是老鹰，还是鸡，该在天空飞翔，还是在围篮里，自己真的该认真想想了。人生，真的不该在浑浑湂湂下去了。。。
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Pursue something in life
Time is flying!! Here it is Mid-Sep in just a blink. Looking back in vain, I just couldn't recall any, what I had done for the past 8 months. I had waste another 8 months again. Couldn't bear for my laze and inanity anymore. I start to list down what I can/wish to. At least, something can guides me or reminds me when I become 'nuar' again.
1. Start my photograph's journey
I have the passion on photo shooting since I was small. Maybe inspired by brother. All the years, I just holding the passion myself without step out as the cost for this hobby indeed not cheap. Furthermore I get 'stimulate' by Kelly lately.It's time for me to turn my passion into action. Por is very kind to offer me his ex-D40. I can have my trial without spending any cent first. Thanks bro. ;)
2. Planning and back-on-track for my travelling dreams
I still never forget my dream to travelling around the worlds. I should start to have proper plan and take to action. At least start with proper finance plan. Just couldn't wait to have my journey to snap over my sights with camera to freeze the beautiful moments. So fast fly into my dream already ~ phew ~*_*
3. Career path + MBA?
Attached here with same positions for 4+ years. It's times to think seriously on my next step. I had been halted and set back by many issues and my laze. Maybe I am too comfy with the safe environment. I have doubt and full of worries for all uncertainties. But can I yield to it forever? I hold the answer in my hand. I know it's time to move further. MBA is something I wish to pursue since the day I graduated. I know I don't have much times left for dragging.
4. Participation on World Vision's sponsorship program
While I am thankful on what I have now, though I might not be holding a very prosperous life, but I always feel I should give something to this society, to those needed. Since I was in U, I start to hear about World Vision and I feel it is indeed a very meaningful program. I told myself I should have my sponsor when I have the abilities. Wondering when I have my Latte at Starbuck, this amount of money might enough for a child months of living costs. I feel guilt. It's time to take action to get the info and start my promise rather than keep thinking vainly.
To prof that I have the determination on the above matters, I decided to fulfilled all the above before I keep on adding on it. I don't wish I might ended up with a mess. I should have proper planning and turn the plan to possibilities. Not only empty promises or targets. Life is short and there are something worth to pursue..... I wish to made my life more meaningful and fruitful...
1. Start my photograph's journey
I have the passion on photo shooting since I was small. Maybe inspired by brother. All the years, I just holding the passion myself without step out as the cost for this hobby indeed not cheap. Furthermore I get 'stimulate' by Kelly lately.It's time for me to turn my passion into action. Por is very kind to offer me his ex-D40. I can have my trial without spending any cent first. Thanks bro. ;)
2. Planning and back-on-track for my travelling dreams
I still never forget my dream to travelling around the worlds. I should start to have proper plan and take to action. At least start with proper finance plan. Just couldn't wait to have my journey to snap over my sights with camera to freeze the beautiful moments. So fast fly into my dream already ~ phew ~*_*
3. Career path + MBA?
Attached here with same positions for 4+ years. It's times to think seriously on my next step. I had been halted and set back by many issues and my laze. Maybe I am too comfy with the safe environment. I have doubt and full of worries for all uncertainties. But can I yield to it forever? I hold the answer in my hand. I know it's time to move further. MBA is something I wish to pursue since the day I graduated. I know I don't have much times left for dragging.
4. Participation on World Vision's sponsorship program
While I am thankful on what I have now, though I might not be holding a very prosperous life, but I always feel I should give something to this society, to those needed. Since I was in U, I start to hear about World Vision and I feel it is indeed a very meaningful program. I told myself I should have my sponsor when I have the abilities. Wondering when I have my Latte at Starbuck, this amount of money might enough for a child months of living costs. I feel guilt. It's time to take action to get the info and start my promise rather than keep thinking vainly.
To prof that I have the determination on the above matters, I decided to fulfilled all the above before I keep on adding on it. I don't wish I might ended up with a mess. I should have proper planning and turn the plan to possibilities. Not only empty promises or targets. Life is short and there are something worth to pursue..... I wish to made my life more meaningful and fruitful...
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
I deserve to.....
Looking back for the past 28 years I going through, complicated feeling welled me up. I grow up from a little gal same like others until today, I am glad that I have many people stand besides me. I have my family who loves me most. Though we do not act as close as others' family, but we hold our love inside our deepest heart. I know it couldn't changed any of our loves to each others no matter how in the past and future. Nothing can deprive it from me!
I have my dearest friends who accompanied me for more than 10 years. We know each others since secondary school. I admitted that I do not as active as others during school days. I did not have a big gang of buddies in school. Our group is small but we shared our tears and laughs together. It might be just a small group but our laughs definitely as much as or even more than others. Though we seldom meet up so frequent nowadays, as all of us have our own life, but our friendship never get faded cause of times. We still so closed to each other even we did not meet up or contact always.
Walking through these years, I have many hard times. I got betrayed, I got hurts, I got sadness, I got laughs and etc. I've been tasted all the sweet and bitter, going through the up and down. For once, I felt give up and get lost. For once, I did many stupid things that hurt my family and peoples who care of me. But I'm glad that they never give up me. I'm thankful that I ever gone through all these which makes me stronger today. I know I'm blessed with their loves. They bring me back when I off track. For those peoples hurts me no matter now or past, I'm thankful. I am not saint and I am learning to forgive. If I never taste the bitter, I'll never know the tast of sweet. I’m proud of myself that I didn't lose myself, my prides and my dignity at last.
Whenever things in life go wrong, it just gives me a chance to prove I'm strong. When I am down, I think of those peoples in this world who are much more misfortune than me. I know I am lucky one. I might lose something but I’ve gained and learnt something or even more. When God close the door, there will be another door is open for me. Someone ever told me, smile is confidence. Yes, I smile! Cause I deserve to….
I have my dearest friends who accompanied me for more than 10 years. We know each others since secondary school. I admitted that I do not as active as others during school days. I did not have a big gang of buddies in school. Our group is small but we shared our tears and laughs together. It might be just a small group but our laughs definitely as much as or even more than others. Though we seldom meet up so frequent nowadays, as all of us have our own life, but our friendship never get faded cause of times. We still so closed to each other even we did not meet up or contact always.
Walking through these years, I have many hard times. I got betrayed, I got hurts, I got sadness, I got laughs and etc. I've been tasted all the sweet and bitter, going through the up and down. For once, I felt give up and get lost. For once, I did many stupid things that hurt my family and peoples who care of me. But I'm glad that they never give up me. I'm thankful that I ever gone through all these which makes me stronger today. I know I'm blessed with their loves. They bring me back when I off track. For those peoples hurts me no matter now or past, I'm thankful. I am not saint and I am learning to forgive. If I never taste the bitter, I'll never know the tast of sweet. I’m proud of myself that I didn't lose myself, my prides and my dignity at last.
Whenever things in life go wrong, it just gives me a chance to prove I'm strong. When I am down, I think of those peoples in this world who are much more misfortune than me. I know I am lucky one. I might lose something but I’ve gained and learnt something or even more. When God close the door, there will be another door is open for me. Someone ever told me, smile is confidence. Yes, I smile! Cause I deserve to….
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