I deserve to.....

Looking back for the past 28 years I going through, complicated feeling welled me up. I grow up from a little gal same like others until today, I am glad that I have many people stand besides me. I have my family who loves me most. Though we do not act as close as others' family, but we hold our love inside our deepest heart. I know it couldn't changed any of our loves to each others no matter how in the past and future. Nothing can deprive it from me!

I have my dearest friends who accompanied me for more than 10 years. We know each others since secondary school. I admitted that I do not as active as others during school days. I did not have a big gang of buddies in school. Our group is small but we shared our tears and laughs together. It might be just a small group but our laughs definitely as much as or even more than others. Though we seldom meet up so frequent nowadays, as all of us have our own life, but our friendship never get faded cause of times. We still so closed to each other even we did not meet up or contact always.

Walking through these years, I have many hard times. I got betrayed, I got hurts, I got sadness, I got laughs and etc. I've been tasted all the sweet and bitter, going through the up and down. For once, I felt give up and get lost. For once, I did many stupid things that hurt my family and peoples who care of me. But I'm glad that they never give up me. I'm thankful that I ever gone through all these which makes me stronger today. I know I'm blessed with their loves. They bring me back when I off track. For those peoples hurts me no matter now or past, I'm thankful. I am not saint and I am learning to forgive. If I never taste the bitter, I'll never know the tast of sweet. I’m proud of myself that I didn't lose myself, my prides and my dignity at last.

Whenever things in life go wrong, it just gives me a chance to prove I'm strong. When I am down, I think of those peoples in this world who are much more misfortune than me. I know I am lucky one. I might lose something but I’ve gained and learnt something or even more. When God close the door, there will be another door is open for me. Someone ever told me, smile is confidence. Yes, I smile! Cause I deserve to….